Goals

A year ago today I set a goal for myself. It was one of the most difficult tasks that I had ever done . It was one of those make or break type of deals where I really had to change my behavior. Where I felt so humble and realized that for whatever the reason there was no excuse and my behavior must stop. As I have gone through this process I have learned that I can't dwell on the past anymore. It is done. I can only build on the glorious future, walk and then run as I get stronger to see what is ahead for me. I am excited to see what unfolds because I know it will be good. Everyday I learn how to make my life better. Humility, prayer, faith, action...those are the keys. Knowing that wise people still ask for help. With this knowledge I am unstoppable. I have learned that we are born, we start having trials and challenges, we start to make decisions. Some are good and some are bad. Some are based on things we learn and some are based on emotion. Those decisions put us on a road to where we end up. There are many explanations, many reasons why I chose my road, some might even agree that they were good reasons. Would I go back now and change things? I can't. What's done is done; But with much introspection, crying out, prayer and meditation I don't know if I would change it. Oh, I wouldn't want to hurt anyone- that would change for sure. But I feel like I have moved to a different room. Not that I have attained anything better than anyone else, just that I took the opportunity to stop and realize that I needed to take inventory, that I needed to humble myself. That no matter who I was or what good I was doing I had flaws. I was flawed and because of this I needed to stop and be deflawed. Realizing this and doing something about it has put me in a different place - a place where my mind is more open to learning, to accepting, to loving unconditionally to be humble always, to accepting things i can't do anything about and having the strength to do something if I can help in any situation. I feel calmer. I feel more peaceful. I feel more positive. I feel happy. I like this room better and I want to stay here. (by the way, I reached the goal that I set one year ago today) !